BAD EXAMPLE:

The fact still remains... he wrote the clan history when nobody else would.
He *might* have written it incorrectly, but he didn't know that.

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I'm going to raise a few key points now.

Historian Rank

None of you would really dispute this based on his work. His work for WG is already worthy of council. The attitude is the dealbreaker. The fact is, the haircut was the cherry on the cake, and not the full reason for his promotion. His work makes him worthy of this rank, which he needs anyway to access certain archive forums. As for half-op, I don't see the harm in rewarding him with it as long as he's not abusive. Considering what he's done to EARN the rank, yes EARN, a tiny little reward like that isn't that much to ask.


DDS on Raids

A rather stupid topic to make, but you guys were so angry with him at the time you failed to see that the main point of his topic was about antiRPKing. DDSing on raids was his way of commenting on how we were RPKing. Poor way to deal with it I know, and I've spoken to him about it. He won't pull something like that again.


Bias from Leaders

This refers to several things including the Historian rank, which I've justified. It also refers to Keanu's lack of punishment for crimes like running from a DM with Lee. I admit I'm in a minority to not see it as a big deal. But if WG sees it as cowardly, so it is. Rachel taking away his mentorship seems like a slap on the wrist, doesn't it? Well the thing is, Keanu's been punished by WG as well. You outcast him, and publicly spat on him in a topic. and that's far worse than a suspension. In other matters where he may have deserved punishment, I will look at them again if you post them... but I feel we're all ready to move on.

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This is a vicious cycle. Keanu is CRAVING appreciation.
He works so hard on WG.com, the wiki page, events, videos...
This isn't to say that other members have given much to WG.
But what Keanu has given is too much for me to ignore.
Historian rank is a comparatively meager reward for it all.

All he wanted was to be valued and respected.
When at first he wasn't, be began to post it to draw our attention to it.
Refer to his signature and other posts where he brags.
He thought we'd see what he'd given.
How wrong he was.

He hosted the summer awards, and to remind us of that it went into his sig.
He thought we'd be grateful for him hosting the awards.
No. We were unimpressed that he bragged.

He's a good man who made bad decisions.
It is not in my conscience to punish him, the one who is so selfless.
Why do I sympathise so?
Because I was just like him.

To earn respect, I used to brag too, and WG put up with it because I was the leader.
They sort of HAD to give me respect, and once I had it, I stopped.
For Keanu, nobody HAS to respect him, and things are getting worse.

Anyway, I've spoken to him about his attitude, and he sees what went wrong.
It is now time to get things out in the open.

Be respectful.
There is lots of anger.
Control it.
 
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How wrong I was. Every time. Or I would have seen this coming months ago. It took His Lordship's post here to make me understand not only what I've been doing, but the reasons why. That's something I would know myself if what I said was true. I was explaining my reasons behind the DDS stunt to Gene when he showed me the topic, and when I read it, I stopped speechless.

I was wrong about knowing when I'm wrong. Until we talked tonight and I saw this post, I had no idea. For whatever reason I just couldn't see why my self-destruction in WG had happened. Maybe it was because I'm the focus of it, and needed an outsider's perspective. Or maybe I was ignorant to it. I don't know. In retrospect it seems obvious, that I was seeking attention. Maybe immaturity is the right word after all. I always simply asked myself, "Do I seem immature?" and replied "Yes". I never thought to take a closer look at the word itself, and what attributes applied to me that defined it. And that, in itself, is immaturity.

Realising this was a stepping stone that I should have taken already, but has had to be handed to me. I'm thankful for it, because I can see that without it I would never have continued. The next one, as I said, is to stop. Without it, the third stone of reconciliation is meaningless - as I will always be able to apologise and make up for my actions, but if these actions continue, my apologies and efforts will lose their meaning.

I don't know. You guys are going to question that. You'll say "How hard can it be to stop acting like a douche?" and in truth, it's not. But when I ask myself, "Can I stop this right now?", I don't come up with a clear "yes". Having to have someone explain myself to me has put me in a state of confusion. And if I have any doubt in my mind, I don't make promises if I'm not sure I can keep them.

So I will start by taking the two stones at once. I apologise for everything I've done - the DDS stunt, awards sig, the video, the DM, every single detail. I know that I've done wrong, and I regret it, and I would not do any of those things again. But there are more mistakes that I could make and problems that I could cause. After tonight, I cannot promise that those will not happen. But I will promise that I will do my best to do what I can to prevent them. And if I am successful, then maybe that apology will be worth something.

I also apologise for the length of this post. Thank you WG, for understanding, and giving me this opportunity. There are few to no other clans that would go so far. That, I respect and admire.
 
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[05:42] <+WG_Keanu> I think I got a semi just looking at the pic
[05:42] <%kat> same

Please listen then Keanu and dont post back would be better i feel.

Listen man. Ive got mixed emotions on one side of a great amount of respect5. You may not remember but i certainly do when you came into tsa irc and apologized about WG's shoddy attendance at the stealing creation event with my guys. Yuo didnt have to but you did so uch respect for that.

On the other hand all the stuff about RPKing.

One. If you run from the fight. That shows how much you care about it. There is no honour in running from a fight

Two. DDs on a raid. Thats being immature most of us get annoyed when on a raid. Seems silly on your part about posting that you know what feedback you would get.

Thirdly. The clan history read it. And take out the part where you mention me. Yes its not in name but in all honesty man i dont appreciate it. You could of at least asked.


Ive seen people say you can go far in WG. Yes you can and proberly will. But you have One choice to make. A. You stop being like you are and grow up or whatever it takes let WG embrace you as they do with some of the other staff. Build those bonds of friendship. Two. Carry on the way you are now. Where if you do get anywhere you will be hated. And then people will not listen to you.


 
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yeah i got bored also, but me im fairly new to the clan and ive never had a problem with keanu he seems like a nice guy to talk to never trolled him or anything, but ive always wondered why people hated him like people always talked behind his back i always asked but people like never really answered me i really didnt get. idk if its just me being new but i hardly see any of things u guys talk about, like him being cocky stuff like that, anyways just saying yeah i agree with wat u said there, its wierd comming into a clan and seeing everyone in the clan picking on one member.
 
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