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What am I doing so terrible?
By rachellove9 on 07/11/2010
I would like to know what I do to hurt the clan. I need honest answers and not some crap about being the best community person and mentor and whatever. Yeah most of the clan loves me, but obviously Kyle thinks I'm shit.
Kyle looks up my gained xp for the last 4 weeks for what purpose. He could of looked up so many other people. But no he looks up me. It is all good and fine that he undermines me every single chance he gets. Maybe he wants me out of council cause he thinks it will do good. Maybe he hopes I leave WG. It really doesn't matter the what he wants at all to me.
The real thing isn't getting heaps of praise or any notice to all the things I do everyday for us, but all the times I help out people. I'm not about to type some lie that I'm going to become an amazing front page player with 99 billion exp in attack. The fact that I even have a 99 in strength is pretty amazing to me.
I'm aware that I can't please everyone all the time. But since Vephy left I have just been a bit more chilling in the evenings and talking to all the trials and going wc and trying to recruit some. So when am I allowed by the members to please myself in RS? I work off and on between my real life job on WG things then come on in the evening to play a bit and I get blasted about how much I am not being loyal to the clan over xp. It seems a bit screwed up to me.
I have been in WG for almost 3 years and not once have I taken an inactive rank or I didn't even take the non-war list. I have gotten the hospitals to give me internet access and let me go home early. Yet somehow my xp gets looked up by Kyle to use me as an example to the clan. It wouldn't matter that he didn't say who's xp it was cause we all know that the clan would start looking at xp to figure it out to be able to push those people.
I think the overall thing to say in this post is that I've not been able to be what everyone wants me to be, but I am the best person I can be. I'm thinking it may be my time to leave. I think it is an honest assessment to say that I've touched so many people in the clan that this is going to have to be done in a way to not hurt WG.
Kyle looks up my gained xp for the last 4 weeks for what purpose. He could of looked up so many other people. But no he looks up me. It is all good and fine that he undermines me every single chance he gets. Maybe he wants me out of council cause he thinks it will do good. Maybe he hopes I leave WG. It really doesn't matter the what he wants at all to me.
The real thing isn't getting heaps of praise or any notice to all the things I do everyday for us, but all the times I help out people. I'm not about to type some lie that I'm going to become an amazing front page player with 99 billion exp in attack. The fact that I even have a 99 in strength is pretty amazing to me.
I'm aware that I can't please everyone all the time. But since Vephy left I have just been a bit more chilling in the evenings and talking to all the trials and going wc and trying to recruit some. So when am I allowed by the members to please myself in RS? I work off and on between my real life job on WG things then come on in the evening to play a bit and I get blasted about how much I am not being loyal to the clan over xp. It seems a bit screwed up to me.
I have been in WG for almost 3 years and not once have I taken an inactive rank or I didn't even take the non-war list. I have gotten the hospitals to give me internet access and let me go home early. Yet somehow my xp gets looked up by Kyle to use me as an example to the clan. It wouldn't matter that he didn't say who's xp it was cause we all know that the clan would start looking at xp to figure it out to be able to push those people.
I think the overall thing to say in this post is that I've not been able to be what everyone wants me to be, but I am the best person I can be. I'm thinking it may be my time to leave. I think it is an honest assessment to say that I've touched so many people in the clan that this is going to have to be done in a way to not hurt WG.
By WG Justin on 07/11/2010
I have plenty to say on the Kyle issue also but at present its midnight and i'm about to pass out so I will write a lengthy post in the morning.
For now I will just say that Rachel is not the only one Kyle has attempted to undermine, and I am deeply concerned that it may be more than just those people he is doing it to.
For now I will just say that Rachel is not the only one Kyle has attempted to undermine, and I am deeply concerned that it may be more than just those people he is doing it to.
By His_Lordship on 07/11/2010
I will post when I'm more alert.
I have a lot to say.
I need to sleep though.
Take it easy Rachel, you have nothing to worry about.
I have a lot to say.
I need to sleep though.
Take it easy Rachel, you have nothing to worry about.
By rachellove9 on 07/11/2010
removed
By His_Lordship on 08/11/2010
I had a word with him.
Mind you, I chose not to argue.
This was purely to get his opinion.
Mind you, I chose not to argue.
This was purely to get his opinion.
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(23:06:31) <Darth> Well, I guess she's a bit.. not all that serious, I guess you can say. She's always finding everything a joke. "yay, happy fun play time, raid lol!" (23:06:35) <Darth> Is the feeling I get from her (23:06:49) <Darth> I just feel she needs to take the clan a bit more seriously (23:09:37) <His_Lordship> well i'm not taking sides yet. i'm only asking because she's feeling threatened and she can't understand why. (23:09:41) <His_Lordship> and neither could i (23:09:51) <Darth> Yeah, I'm not trying to threaten her at all (23:09:56) <Darth> She just took the post the wrong way, I guess (23:10:29) <Darth> and, her recent activity has been worrying me a bit (23:10:38) <Darth> I haven't seen her around in IRC/ingame as much as she used to be (23:10:45) <His_Lordship> may i quote this chat to her or is this between us? (23:11:05) <Darth> Sure. Feel free to. (23:13:36) <His_Lordship> About her not taking the clan seriously (23:13:49) <His_Lordship> Would that be fixed if she spent more time in-game? (23:14:00) <His_Lordship> Because I think that's just her personality. She's not being superficial (23:14:04) <Darth> Well like, I know she does take it seriously (23:14:06) <Darth> Yeah, exactly (23:14:09) <Darth> that's her personality (23:14:22) <Darth> It just irks me slightly how she like laughs at everything (23:15:08) <Darth> Don't think more in-game time would mean that she takes it more serious (23:15:25) <Darth> I guess just more overall clan activity, on IRC more, getting involved in conversations/forum topics more (23:15:48) <His_Lordship> she's on a lot you know. not as much as veph, but a lot (23:17:43) <His_Lordship> but i can't think of anyone who takes wg more seriously. its not the quantity, but the quality. i get you trust me (23:17:49) <Darth> Yeah. (23:18:09) <Darth> the "happy go lucky" personality is just really weird to me. (23:19:37) <Darth> So I'm honestly not trying to attack her at all, and I really am sorry if it seems like that |
Just be yourself Rachel.
You're kindhearted and it doesn't sit well with some teenage boys who are still growing up.
They see your openness and kindness and they make the assumption that you're not a serious person.
If you want to prove them otherwise, why don't you try pressing your foot down and get angry over something you're passionate about. Then again, that's not really you, is it? Maybe, maybe not.
In any case, Darth doesn't hate you. He's uneasy about the idea you're always so optimistic. That's all. You are a strong, wonderful person and nothing needs to change.
EDIT: Justin I have no idea who else Kyle is trying to undermine but I'd like to know. I find it hard to believe. He's always really nice to me.
By rachellove9 on 08/11/2010
I can't change my personality, nor would I want to change it. I'm happy about life, cause really each day is a day longer I get to live.
It still does not explain his choosing me as the person to look up for an example. I'm on irc and ts all the time. I greet and probably talk to more people in most days then he even speaks to in a week. If he had bothered to look at more than exp he would realize that I'm one of the more active members.
Seriously, he has to stop it. I can't stand his critical attitude and all the negativeness he brings to us. It goes both ways. After all this is a game for people to enjoy playing and to find their outlet from real life.
I'll end up leaving, not just council but the clan. I don't think I deserve to be treated badly by him. He needs to grow up and realize that tolerance is part of life. When he saw I was upset with him he didn't even have the sense to talk to me. Whether he likes me or not he should realize that the Guardians over all love me. It would be like telling someone you don't like them because they have a birthmark on the side of their face the size of their hand. I don't like you cause of it but you can't change it either.
I'm angry all over again reading this and I'm going to consider leaving. I'm opening council applications on November 16 or around that. People are asking and that is what I am telling them. Justin and I are discussing some of the details. He will be deployed to the marines soon enough and then I could come back.
It still does not explain his choosing me as the person to look up for an example. I'm on irc and ts all the time. I greet and probably talk to more people in most days then he even speaks to in a week. If he had bothered to look at more than exp he would realize that I'm one of the more active members.
Seriously, he has to stop it. I can't stand his critical attitude and all the negativeness he brings to us. It goes both ways. After all this is a game for people to enjoy playing and to find their outlet from real life.
I'll end up leaving, not just council but the clan. I don't think I deserve to be treated badly by him. He needs to grow up and realize that tolerance is part of life. When he saw I was upset with him he didn't even have the sense to talk to me. Whether he likes me or not he should realize that the Guardians over all love me. It would be like telling someone you don't like them because they have a birthmark on the side of their face the size of their hand. I don't like you cause of it but you can't change it either.
I'm angry all over again reading this and I'm going to consider leaving. I'm opening council applications on November 16 or around that. People are asking and that is what I am telling them. Justin and I are discussing some of the details. He will be deployed to the marines soon enough and then I could come back.
By rachellove9 on 10/11/2010
this is my irrational feel good thing to do.
I would put it as my signature but at the moment it would be linked to Darth by those who know I'm upset with him. But it pretty much sums up my feeling on him.
I would put it as my signature but at the moment it would be linked to Darth by those who know I'm upset with him. But it pretty much sums up my feeling on him.
By His_Lordship on 10/11/2010
Lol, that's a term that could really catch on.
If he has done something recently, tell me.
I would really like to mediate in this situation.
If he has done something recently, tell me.
I would really like to mediate in this situation.
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